Fear

Started this post several times and now put that fear to rest.

Fear has come in and out of my life more than I would choose...Some by choice and some thru others.

Recently my mom's house was broken into, Yes, she's safe.  She was at the gym when it happened.  They got away with mainly sentimental stuff...only thing of true monetary value would have been my grandma's flat screen TV (she's excited to get an upgrade!).  Seems the culprits are working the neighborhood and that means they are watching it! 

So here another fear, being safe and secure in your own home!  The place where you should be the most relaxed and now you have to rethink that.  In this happening to my mom, made me look at what is going on in my house...am I safe?  I'm home alot by myself because of the many jobs my husband works. 

Should I bolt the door and hide from the outside world OR continue to brave what is out there...I think everyone knows what wins!!

But there are many more fears going on in my life...Will I be ok, what will the radiation do to my body...Will I ever be considered truly healthy again.  I already have some of the lovely effects of the radiation starting.  I call the them the radiation runs (I shouldn't have to explain that one) and seems my diet should change..I am back to the plain diet of no fruit, veggies or whole grain...believe it or not that is killing me.

But we now move onto other fears everyone in their life has faced...some are good and bad in my opinion

Fear of God...Fear of Death...Fear of being alone...Fear of being with someone...will someone take care of me...can I take care of someone....when faced with cancer alot of my fears have come to the forefront.  Some pounding on my door and others like a thief breaking in.

Before the start of this new path in my life...one of my biggest fears was making sure my kids were safe.  That I took care of my health and those around me...My husband can attest to that...he does eat much healthier now that I am in his life (the man lost 40 pounds because of it!  Me on same diet...ounces lost).

When we're younger the fears you have to face when looking back don't seem so bad.  What if I put the paperclip in the light socket?  Will the sheet (which is now my cape) allow me to fly off this roof like Superman?  Curfew?!surely mom won't get mad if I am late?  What school to go to after graduation?  Will I graduate? (a more recent one!)  Should I move out or continue to hassle my parents at home.  Will I like the career I have chosen?  Should I marry...should I have kids. 

Fear can stop us from many things we are meant to challenge.  You can be gripped by it and miss what the lesson is.  And I have found most of the lesson is actually conquering that fear...open the door and letting it in. 

Don't let fear stop you...otherwise it will rob you of everything of sentimental value in your life...the monetary means nothing!